As silly as it may sound I do think there's someone out there for me. I may or may not meet that person but he is destined for me. You know, maybe I passed him by, maybe we bumped into each other, maybe we made eye contact, maybe we watched a movie, maybe we made each other smile and laugh, maybe we traded phone numbers, maybe I leaned on his shoulder, maybe he leaned on mine, maybe I held his hand, maybe he held mine, maybe I broke his heart, maybe he broke mine, maybe we kissed, maybe we hugged, maybe I’m with him now, maybe he let me go, maybe I let him go, maybe he was worth it, maybe he thought I was worth it, maybe he didn’t, maybe he’s thinking of me, maybe I’m thinking of him, maybe he made me cry, maybe I made him cry, maybe he has a girlfriend, maybe I thought he was the one, maybe I loved him, maybe I still do and maybe, just maybe… he loved me, maybe he still does. I’m just not sure if God is ready to give him to me yet. :)
"one of these days i'll hear your voice and you'll say you missed me."
hi. i’m jhez. and my heart’s pretty f*ucked up right now. hahaha. XD
It’s been 9 months and 14 days since my last post and I’m still not over him. Talk about being pathetic. I’m supposed to be all moved on by now. Would you believe that I’m still crying over that same guy?? Pretty stupid huh? And I’m probably gonna regret writing these posts 5 or 10 years from now but still, it’s how I’m feeling this very second. I don’t expect you to understand what I’m going through ‘cause I can’t either. I just wanna say how I’m not okay and I don’t wanna be judged for feeling this way. One great love came to my life and left so whatever, just bear with me. I know I have a boyfriend. I know I shouldn’t feel this friggin’ way. I know it’s unfair. I know the guy I wrote this for doesn’t even give a damn about me. And I don’t know who else to tell these things to so sorry I picked you. Don’t get me wrong, I love my boyfriend. He’s my forever. He’s mine, I’m his but he came after the other guy and I can’t help but think of the what-ifs and the what-could-have-beens. :[
"I was just another girl to you, wasn't i?"
alam mo, di ko alam kung bakit ako emote nang emote eh hindi naman naging kame! oh db.? ang tanga tanga ko! shet. hai.
Remember when you tucked my hair behind my ear?
(I’ve been longing for it)
Remember when you asked my permission to hold my hand?
(that was so cute.)
Remember when you leaned on my shoulder at the back of the bus?
(yup, sa likod ng bus)
Remember when we traded phones?
(tapos tayo lang naman magka_text)
Remember when we talked for hours on the phone?
(I’ve been missing those phone calls)
Remember when I would cough and you’d say, ‘ui.okay ka lang?’
(that was so thoughtful of you)
Remember when I told you to choose?
(you didn't pick anyone but sadly that also means you didn’t choose me)
Remember when you asked me if it was okay if you joined a frat?
(sabi ko ok lang.)
Remember the day when I told you how I felt and you said you loved her?
(it crushed me)
I do. (tian! andami ko namang naaalala!) *sob*
What happened to, ‘kakayanin naten to.’?
Remember this picture?
That’s ‘cause you sent it to me. Damn it! At least be there to wipe away my tears if you’re going to make me cry! I’m still stuck and I wanna be free from this agony you’ve brought about.
“You said I was great! You said I could be great! You said we were destined to be together! You said it to the world! You said it to me and I wish you never had because you did not mean any of it!!”
-Peyton Elizabeth Sawyer [One Tree Hill]
“you've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker”
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